Next Step in my life - Marriage....

I always wondered whether I will have love marriage or traditional indian arranged marriage

Yes! I am having arranged marriage. I know you all must have million question how does it works How can you fall in love for someone whom you have never met. How can parents choose? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... I understand all the questions.. but I just want to tell u that I know for sure when I talked to Vidyaa for the first time.. she is the one.. dont ask me how why.. but it is the way I felt.. I did try a bit of western along with Indian.. i did partially surprise her with an engagement ring... :-) She loved it!!! I will try to update this blog from now on about my journey to next Orbit!! bachelor to married man! :-)

What do I want ?

I was deeply daunted with a zillion dollar question... What do I want?

hmmmmm most of the time it is very easy to say what we don't want. wants & dont wants list grows long but when we scavenge it and mine for ONE THIG...it is very simple : I want happiness....endlesss....anandham..meaning happiness per anandham..meaning endless blissful happiness. Will making a billion or getting media fame I could reach this state of happiness! yes I said state of happiness... hmmmmm not sure because we need to go by our perspective... I dont see rich fame are the most happiest people. I was traveling in India last Christmas with my friend from west. He observed something that I never noticed... Dude! People in India are so poor.. they don't know their right..they have no clue whats happening but still they all are happy...I see them smiling..running around..inspite of all this cows on street.. poverty in the way they look.... gosh! he nailed me right there.. Yes dude we all are happy because we all believe in something great.. Every soul willingly or unwillingly believes in Karma! They are all believe in reaching their destiny in the spiritual journey...

So what is spirituality..

Spirituality is a human capacity to have a certain kind of experience, just as you can have all kinds of experiences mentally, physically, emotionally.

How do we experience spirituality? Spirituality is our ability to interact with a great mystery and to do so in ways which honour that intrinsic mystery. A true mystery can only be known by its effects, the phenomenon that results from its actions.

We are surrounded by all kinds of mysteries: in nature, in our personal life, in the arts, and in religious and spiritual life, and we often don’t respond to these appropriately.

The appropriate way to respond to an intrinsic mystery is to be open to its revelation, to welcome that revelation, and to honour it as it shows itself in its own way and on its own terms. To meet such a mystery we must be willing to live with ambiguity and to be able to interact with it, leaving what is fully understood and comfortable behind.


A quick search gave me definition of four different experiences..

Ecstatic experiences — Personal epiphanies and “callings”
Ritualistic experiences — Tribal and cult experiences often derived from oral tradition
Formalized experiences — Highly structured experiences often adhering to a doctrine
Spiritual living — Spirituality as a constant, day to day experience

Whooooooooooooo... too much to digest in this blog entry... let me leave the rest in the next...

I love hangin out in office...

It was really enlightening message to me when I really liked being myself working in office. I don't know I get an immense pleasure working, doing something creative on my own pace.... but i love to do in an office environment when no one around..

I like to talk to people walk around help others out during the day but be more productive in the night.. I get so much pride and happiness working by myself.. hmmmmm crazy.. may be my consulting IT background made me one! Honestly I am like this in my MBA. I used to lot of night outs! what we call back home....Burning the midnight oil! listening to music Diet coke..WOW!! I love it!


As rightly said by some saint.. "Work is workship of Lord! There is indescribbable joy in the practice of Karma yoga. Work always elevates when it is done in the right spirit, without attachment and egoism..."
I dont know about the attachment and egoism part i think i still need to work on it!

American reporter - My mom's first touch of independence

It was my dream to bring my mom to USA. It was summer of 2001 I was fortunate to get the glimpse of dream coming true in Orlando Disney.. Epcot! WoW!! what a marevellous place.. One mans dream...all the kids dream...elderly people dream.. gosh! this is what I lived all my life for to see my favourite disney characters.. I was 22 at that time still I felt like a 5 yr old jumping around enthusiastically.. All those rides.. ohh my god.. unbelievable..I called my mom from Diney.. I told Mom! you must be here someday..I miss you all.. I wish Dad was alive to listen to me talking about US and Disney! My mom said sure..son he is seeing your right now blessing you as a guardian angel..anyways.. I realized my dream of bringing my mom to USA this May of 2008.. She landed here in Columbia South carolina Airport visiting me for my graduation.. WoW!! I felt proud!...eventhough I am not supposed to...I felt proud not for me.. but for my Mom! I was thinking of her Journey.. life journey..

Born in a village in a poor family in a state called Tamilnadu in souther india in a village closer to Chennai.. my mom has to fight all the odds as was our country at that time.. It was not a easy path especially if you are the first one in the family.
She was a determined girl right from her childhood. My grandma gave all her strength...an Indian expat from Burma ( Myanamar) My grandma was a world war survivor..she has seen ups and downs in her life living a royal life in burma loosing all her wealth and siblings in the war.. She was a tough women.. she wanted to see a better world through the eyes of her daughter... Vandarkuzhali.. yes that hard to say name is very poetic tamil word.. It means.. the bees are tricked by the beauty and smell of long beautiful hair! that my mom had.. :-) hmmmm gosh! what a name...

My mom told me when she landed in Columbia that all that she knows about America when she was doing her high school is America Reporter.. A free magazine that was delivered to her village through Indian Postal service! god bless them...in one of the questionaire that she was asked whether she listens to some program in BBC Radio! it looks like my mom replied by mail that her family could not afford a Radio as it is way too expensive.... for her...hmmmm I had my goose bumps! again now as I typing this... poverty ... suppression.. false belief...superstition.. caste system.. name any god damn thing. she has to fight her way out.. even now lot many children are fighting their way out... Mom! you are no doubt an inspiration to so many that you thought as professor in the last 36 years... an inspiration to all that are going to follow your way of fighting againgst all odds in India!!


I welcomed my mom with a sigh of relief an hug! as a son I always wanted from my mom.. Mom Thank You! Thank you! for everything.. I am here because of you.. You are simply great!! Welcome to United States of America!!!

Amma...(Mom) wonderful divinity

As they rightly say sometimes it is very hard to appreciate value of mother's love,care,affection resulting in infinite happiness. I was fortunate to get back to my childhood days.. My mom waking me up with cup of tea preparing delicious food and taking care of me for last 3 months. It was hard for me to wake up today this morning only to realize that my mom has already reached Delhi after a 16 hr straight flight from Newark!.. Oops... Mommy I miss you!! gosh.. I am old enough to be a parent myself ..why am I feeling like this..... I think age, experience, education, designation does not change ones love and longing for mother.. Amma.. is universal I love for mom.. she is my strength.. she my energy she give me so much confidence and courage to live in this selfish world. She showers her selfless love all the time.. Sometime it is very hard to understand but as time passes by I get this realization of my moms love....hmmmmm anyways..

Thank god for my friends they were with me today we watched Olypics I was cheering for Netherlands and China against US.. always it is good to cheer for a team that is trying harder! I tried to get my thought and place more organized. I think only way to make myself better is to be active.. No wonder idle brain is Devil's workplace. I want to get rid of those devilish thoughts.. fill my heart and brain with positive energy planning my week... I am listening to famous Balamuralikrishna Kirtans...South Indian Carnatic Music... It feels so relaxing....

Motivating Mom!!

It came as a surprise today when I looked back at my blog entries! My mom came down all the way from India for my graduation. She never got a chance to look or read my blog. It was today I revealed about my blog identity. To my surprise she said,, "Look at you so many people around the world are reading your blog. I am sure they all like you and your words I think you should start back again. Keep up the spirits and just write few lines about whatz happening in your life..." Okay...mom let me write down what you said today as my blog entry. I am sure this motivation may last atleast for a day or two or may even for a year! who knows.. let me start writing about "30 year old spends 3 months with his mom" next few blog entries are going to talk about my child state experience! along with what my mom thought about this wonderful country US of A. Thank you peeps for all your support so far....

Am I an MBA?

MBA to me was a dream! Since my undergraduate days. you will not believe me how I lived in this virtual world of MBA..An executive who can dress sharp, talk about business, world, economics and what not!.. I have couple of months to go to complete my MBA. Last night I was talking to my friend about whether I qualify to call myself an MBA. It means someone who is smart with numbers, negotiation, professional, on schedule.. sharp.. my god.. I have this dream picture in my mind about a stereotypical MBA.. little bit of an arrogance and attitude.. BS with some logic.. convincing customers... hmmmmm I am not sure how far I graduated to become one. All that I can say right now is I have two more months to change couple of things I really lack.

1. Scheduling Task & Sticking to schedule - I stress and stress others I am trying to avoid this uncertainty. ( I loose my productivity and its not fun either)

2. Having place for everything and Having everything in its place! Very hard for me again.. 2 more months let me train myself to do whatever best I could.

3. JUST SAY NO! when u don't want to say YES!.. My friend was telling me how difficult culturally to say NO to someone. I imagine a lot about what the other person would think! (apparently no one has time

My boss told me do not take more than THREE Tasks at time. I am going to stick on to that philosophy. let me see how this is going to work out...